this sucks

I hate distance. I do, I really do.

It ruins everything. It's the reason you're far away from the people you love. It's the excuse commercial carriers use to empty your wallet and burn holes in your pockets. It's about the only thing that separates you from where you are and where you'd rather be.

Bloody distance. I hate it!

Everything changes because of it. People aren't the same anymore. And how can you blame them? They don't see you as much as they used to, and suddenly things are just not the way they used to be. You're not as close as before but what can you do about it? That's right. Absolutely nothing.

Doesn't that just piss you off?

The fact that you can do absolutely nothing within your power to make it all better again? And even if you do, then what? It's only going to be temporary. Things will change again once you leave and then who knows how much this time? What if there's no going back to how it was? What if it's just been too long? What if you've just been too far away for it to be worth it anymore?

What if you know you'll never see them again? And you still can't do anything about it?

What if slowly, it takes away everything from you? And then one day you wake up and you realize, that's all you've got around you. Distance. And nothing else. No one else.

And even if you want to reach out to someone, it's just been too long, and you're too far away for it to do any real good. You've lost them. You've lost everyone. What then?

Oh that's right. You can't do anything about it. Except sit and cry like a pathetic, helpless little kid who wouldn't listen, wandered off a little too far from his mommy, and can't find his way back.

Screw this. SCREW DISTANCE!